This morning

Pagi-pagi mak dah mandi kan Khadeeja...dengan air panas le.

Dan pagi-pagi satu kampung dengar Khadeeja menjerit.

Khadeeja menggigil kesejukan padahal mak dah tutup kipas and air pun panas.

I have to calm you down before starting to dress you up.

Serba salah la mak sayang. Kalau mak tak mandikan, Acu tak pandai mandikan.

Takkan nak biarkan Khadeeja bucuk sampai petang kan...Khadeeja kan Raihanah...bau bauan dari syurga..bau syurga tentu wangi kan sayang. Kalau tak mandi nanti bucuk la kan kan....

Dah mandi...fresh kan saya

ngantuk la

Dah bedung,...isk saya tak shuker la bedung

hmmm i feel warm

Oh lupa nak beritau. Early this morning, at 3 am, yes 3 am Khadeeja, you drink your milk but you cannot sleep. Selalunya dah dapat milk you will sleep. Mak check and changed your diapers.You still cannot sleep...terkebil-kebil then merengek. I don't know what to do. I try to put you on my chest. Tapi macam tak comfortable.
In the end i hold you with my left hand and we slept until morning....


Oh yea...tadi Mama call from JB. She told me, she met your real mom last sunday.
Your mom kept asking about you, how you are, what you can do now. Dah tanggal pusat ke belum.
And she had your picture on her bedroom wall. ..sedih pulak mak dengar. I am sure she misses you.
But she is not in a situation where she can afford to have you..well not yet.
And at the same time, I do not want her to take you away :( 
You are my baby now....